The non horror film that horrified me to the bone!

I've heard people rave about this movie and I finally decided to watch it! Now I'm pretty sensitive when it comes to movies. Someone dies, a dog gets shot, a baby is born... yeah I'll get teary eyed but MY GOD just the reality that things like this happen probably on a daily basis... CREEPED ME OUT!
Not just one main character in the movie so there are a few people to follow. Start out with the son. He's taking his mom's tv which you find is to get a few bucks for a fix.
The mother is waiting terrified in her bedroom as if he's a mad man... meantime you learn he's just a junkie and she's the one with a few nuts and bolts missing.

The role of crazy mom played by Ellen Burstyn, was an absolute masterpiece. She captured the essence of an individual crazed by the every day stress of a mediocre life and pressures of society. I was so impressed by her devotion to the character and her ability to play a difficult role with ease.
She starts out fairly normal but you can tell off the bat that not everything is kosher. She's alone and proceeds to mention her isolation and lonliness in the movie as she vents to her son. An untypical long scene of gut spilling just makes you FEEL for this woman.
The reality of the older people in our lives having WHAT to live for?! She mentions that she has no one to care for and all I kept thinking is 'my god... how many women must feel that way'
Women naturally have it in them to care for others, to provide emotional strength and pamper. What is a widow to do?!
So she sits at home glued to the television watching the same brainwashing show.
Suddenly she has a reason to do something with herself. She begins to take weightloss pills to look good for a TV show! Now we all know that when someone tells you you're going to be on TV, it won't be tomorrow if at all but this is where she starts going JUST a little crazy. The pills take care of the rest.
The actress in her unbelievable role makes you realize just how easy it is to lose your senses. With the pressure out there today, people never know their own worth and strive towards something unnecessary all the while THINKING that's what will make them happy.
So she loses weight and her mind goes with it. You find it in your heart to sympathize with the fictional character.

The rest of the movie is just as disturbing. You see the poor mother losing her mind as the time goes by and her junkie son and friends ruining their lives for a fix.
It amazes me that drugs can bring people to this horrible state in life.
For any of you that are drug addicts, PLEASE SEEK HELP!
If ANY part of this movie is realistic, please do something about your addiction. I'm sure it's easier said than done and what do I know if I have never been pulled into those habits but I hope you find a way to get out of it.

The son's arm gets infected but he doesn't do anything about it.... again! It's all about the damn fix! So he keeps injecting through the infected area, ends up in the hospital just to get his arm amputated.... HORRIBLE!

So you see the son and his friends getting high and doing what they can for a fix. Risking their lives, health and sanity to get that momentary feeling of denying reality in a physical state.


What hit me was when the girlfriend played by Jennifer Connely becomes so desperate, she sells her body for her fix. It gets to the point where she gets invited to a sex party.
There are men all around a low stage where each gets a first look at females doing things to eachother that you don't get to see even in porn movies. And they have special requests too!

I don't know if any men like the ones in the movie will ever see this post but if any guys are into that bull shit, think of your mother or sister in that situation and get over your hard on!
For a woman to put herself in that situation, she must be in bad shape in her life.
One man yells out ass to ass! So they take a huge dildo and do what he asks.

As horrible as this movie is, I want to see it again. I'm sort of in denial because it's so hard for me to believe these situations.
See the movie yourself... What do YOU think?

Stress anyone?

How does stress effect us?
Me? Well I'm always stressed. Seems like there is always reason to be and having every joe shmo tell me otherwise is just more stressful!
So yeah, I know what stress is doing to me in general. I live it every day... don't deny it, you do too.
Symptoms:
Not sleeping well at night
Finding your appetite to be insatiable
Hair loss
Annoying habits
Irritable all the time
Fatigue
Undefined menstrual cycle
Acne
And oh so much more!
And these are only on the surface! What about the chemical reactions in your body? Think it doesn't effect your every day life? Think you're handling it well! HA! DENIAL!

Sometimes you feel like your head is going to explode and sometimes you hope for it!
Fight or Flight BABY:

Stress is what you feel when you have to handle more than you are used to. When you are stressed, your body responds as though you are in danger. It makes hormones that speed up your heart, make you breathe faster, and give you a burst of energy. This is called the fight-or-flight (Web MD)

Stress effects you more than you know. I know the diagram isn't big enough but basically it shows you the different areas that stress can effect you.
Whether you're at work, school or just life is driving you up the walls, you find yourself unable to cope whether you can admit it or not! Life isn't easy, and no one promised it would be!
Your boss can be the biggest pain and you feel unappreciated. Your spouse just doesn't get WHY it is that you're stressed or your scraping for that month's rent. The kids just won't behave and no meal is satisfying enough to their picky needs. The in laws are hounding you for yet another grandchild but they don't know you're doctor just told you there is a health risk involved. The antique bowl you got for your wedding just broke, you sliced your finger while cooking, the shower has no pressure and the moths made holes in your suit!
What else can possible go wrong!?!??
And someone had the nerve to eat your Moist Maker Turkey Sandwich!??!?!
OK I say we do THIS from now on! RAGE damnit! Someone pisses you off? Throw a blow! Spouse getting on your nerves? Throw something and don't put out! Boss is pissing you off, shred all the important paperwork! In laws pressuring you? MOVE far far away! Kids driving you crazy? That's it! NO DINNER FOR A MONTH!

Ok... let's be realistic now...
There should be at least one person in your life that can make you feel better. Where a hug or massage relieves some of that days stress. Breathing techniques might work for you, I prefer the cig break, some tears and chocolate! VENT! Despite what you think, it helps! Just make sure to vent to the right crowd. Not everyone truly cares what you're going through and when you realize the person you've been venting to just wants you to shut up already, that can only add to your stress.
We live in a crazy world people! No one wants to take on their own lives and deal with other people's problems but what helps you, might help others too. Being nice and thoughtful has lost all meaning... How about we start to remedy that?
How about you? Need an ear to talk off? Email me! I'll listen if you do!

My Reese Li Black Bead

So yeah it's a diaper bag and yeah it's pretty big and yeah... I'm loving it! I was thinking of getting the Leaf Lexington first. Nice fall colors and so so pretty... but ended up going with Black Bead. This bag ROCKS!
It's super roomy and the straps are surprisingly comfortable. The first day I took it out, had my laptop in there. I'm getting the Lexie Barnes computer case insert because that wasn't so ideal. Definitely need a lap top cover if you're going to use the Lexington as a laptop bag.

So I use one outside pocket for my cell and metro card and the other for a water bottle... perfect fit!
It's big enough to store my sweater or light jacket too when I'm not using them. The inside pockets are full with things too and I am LOVING this bag!
The Reese Li Lexington sells for about $150 but feel free to click on them to see the entire collection and get 10% off!

The Shithole!

So yeah as I've mentioned it's a shithole but we have our reasons. We actually turned it into a livable place but our main issue right now is the minimal mold on the walls of the first floor. Small circles of mold. We did some research and read up that it effect children and older people with weak immune systems. My guy is a bull and can handle it all and so far I haven't had any symptoms at all, we've been here for a week.

We're not planning on a life in this house but it's a temporary set up till we get on our feet.
Does anyone know of easy and CHEAP remedies? Something we can do that won't take up much time as we're both working and still have yet to set this place up a little more?

It's actually only in the living room and dining room.
I heard I can scrub the walls with soapy bleach water in an attempt to kill it but my guy read that sometimes dead mold, if not fully removed can be more harmful.
He has allergies and they haven't gotten worse since we've been here so I'm only blindly assuming I'm being paranoid... LIORR You're making me paranoid! :)
That's my sis in law... She is convinced the mold will have serious effects on our health.

Sooooo Any opinions? Vote on the poll! Leave a comment! Give us suggestions PLEASE! Either get me out of this house and feed into my paranoia or reassure me that a few months in a 2 room moldy home is ok and not such a big deal!

Thanks all!

More weight lost more weight loss to go

So this weekend was at weight watchers again. And I lost 3.4 pounds hee hee!
Pretty psyched thank you very much!

And now my guy is even hooked on the snacks... I called him today to find out he dipped into my weight watchers snack stash... Ahhhhh a stash filled with Peanut butter mini bars, chocolate raspberry mini bars, Chocolate caramel mini bars, fruit and nut bars, sweet and salty bars... luckily my low fat Pringles and Fiber one bars were well hidden hee hee hee.

FYI Caramel Fiber Ones are so tasty! They're slightly bigger than the chocolate and a little more chewy too!

And now as I'm searching for web images to add to this post I found a blog with a post about the Fat Free Pringles that had me on the floor laughing hysterically!

Here's the link:
http://webnugs.blogspot.com/2006_10_01_archive.html


MUST READ.. She had me crackin!