The non horror film that horrified me to the bone!

I've heard people rave about this movie and I finally decided to watch it! Now I'm pretty sensitive when it comes to movies. Someone dies, a dog gets shot, a baby is born... yeah I'll get teary eyed but MY GOD just the reality that things like this happen probably on a daily basis... CREEPED ME OUT!
Not just one main character in the movie so there are a few people to follow. Start out with the son. He's taking his mom's tv which you find is to get a few bucks for a fix.
The mother is waiting terrified in her bedroom as if he's a mad man... meantime you learn he's just a junkie and she's the one with a few nuts and bolts missing.

The role of crazy mom played by Ellen Burstyn, was an absolute masterpiece. She captured the essence of an individual crazed by the every day stress of a mediocre life and pressures of society. I was so impressed by her devotion to the character and her ability to play a difficult role with ease.
She starts out fairly normal but you can tell off the bat that not everything is kosher. She's alone and proceeds to mention her isolation and lonliness in the movie as she vents to her son. An untypical long scene of gut spilling just makes you FEEL for this woman.
The reality of the older people in our lives having WHAT to live for?! She mentions that she has no one to care for and all I kept thinking is 'my god... how many women must feel that way'
Women naturally have it in them to care for others, to provide emotional strength and pamper. What is a widow to do?!
So she sits at home glued to the television watching the same brainwashing show.
Suddenly she has a reason to do something with herself. She begins to take weightloss pills to look good for a TV show! Now we all know that when someone tells you you're going to be on TV, it won't be tomorrow if at all but this is where she starts going JUST a little crazy. The pills take care of the rest.
The actress in her unbelievable role makes you realize just how easy it is to lose your senses. With the pressure out there today, people never know their own worth and strive towards something unnecessary all the while THINKING that's what will make them happy.
So she loses weight and her mind goes with it. You find it in your heart to sympathize with the fictional character.

The rest of the movie is just as disturbing. You see the poor mother losing her mind as the time goes by and her junkie son and friends ruining their lives for a fix.
It amazes me that drugs can bring people to this horrible state in life.
For any of you that are drug addicts, PLEASE SEEK HELP!
If ANY part of this movie is realistic, please do something about your addiction. I'm sure it's easier said than done and what do I know if I have never been pulled into those habits but I hope you find a way to get out of it.

The son's arm gets infected but he doesn't do anything about it.... again! It's all about the damn fix! So he keeps injecting through the infected area, ends up in the hospital just to get his arm amputated.... HORRIBLE!

So you see the son and his friends getting high and doing what they can for a fix. Risking their lives, health and sanity to get that momentary feeling of denying reality in a physical state.


What hit me was when the girlfriend played by Jennifer Connely becomes so desperate, she sells her body for her fix. It gets to the point where she gets invited to a sex party.
There are men all around a low stage where each gets a first look at females doing things to eachother that you don't get to see even in porn movies. And they have special requests too!

I don't know if any men like the ones in the movie will ever see this post but if any guys are into that bull shit, think of your mother or sister in that situation and get over your hard on!
For a woman to put herself in that situation, she must be in bad shape in her life.
One man yells out ass to ass! So they take a huge dildo and do what he asks.

As horrible as this movie is, I want to see it again. I'm sort of in denial because it's so hard for me to believe these situations.
See the movie yourself... What do YOU think?